如果的如果。。

如果安排我去, 就让我有个明确的答案
如果一开始没在名单内, 那我今天不会失落
如果这次没有这次机会, 明年还是有机会的
如果我一旦决定要了，那么没了我会失落
如果这会照成混乱场面, 那我宁可没了这个机会
如果真的是没了,请快点让我知道; 以让我有自己的打算
如果是用争夺来换取机会, 那我可不稀罕
如果的如果的如果。。

也许明天就有答案了，是对是错没人能懂！！

Why i sick again?

Sick again today, wake up at midnite which feel wind run here and there inside my stomach and early morning wake up vomit+diarrhea again. What happen to my stomach?

What should i do to avoid the virus come to me again? scary virus..Let me missed out the chance to have nice buffet celebration lunch today. Only ate at RM3 for those food. Wasted!!

If continue with this condition, how I go oversea for coming month? Anyhow it is still not confirm yet.. I also do not know whether i should hope for the trip coming or hope that I do not need for the trip.

Nothing's gonna change my love for you。。

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong Our dreams are young And we both knowthey'll take us Where we want to go
Hold me now Touch me now I don't want to live without you
Nothing's gonna change my love for you You ought know by now how much I love you One thing you can be sure of I'll never ask for more than your love
Nothing's gonna change my love for you You ought know by now how much I love you The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you If the road ahead is not so easy,Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view I'll help you see forever too

L@st Dinner。。

I have attended so call department last dinner last week..Can feel the sadness when they have the slideshow. It reflected the time the whole team work together and share the hapiness together for the past 10 years..Even I just joined them not long, but really can feel the depression especially our ex-GM who build up this department..

Anyhow whole group of us really enjoy very much for the event.
We had the rock song, and all people being invited to the dancing pool and we dance together..Those guy acted extremely funny to cheer all of us up.. It is the show time for them and all busy showing their personalize dancing style..

Special and last dinner for all of us..
Special: coz of our special theme where outsider sure feel weird when saw the whole bunch of people wearing such shirt hanging around at the hotel lobby, car park & etc...Last: coz after this week, most of them will have their new journey from here.. Sayonara..

累了！！

昨夜失眠了，也不知道为了什么。。也许近来有太多的压力，太多东西想了。。以为今早会很没精神， 可是不会的。。直到下午的时候，情绪突然间转到低点。发生什么事了？我也不晓得。。女人的情绪还真难以预料。。一时欢喜，一时忧。。

真的觉得好累， 好想找个人来陪。。相信缘分，可是缘分的定义又是什么呢？每个人都不一样？今天有着从心灵深处所发出的累。真的很糟糕，这么快已经如此的累； 接下来的日子怎么办呢？还能撑到2011年吗？Project 一再的延辗，也就说繁忙的日子会持续。。到2011年。。那时我会还在这吗？如还在这，我会变成什么样子呢？难以预测， 也难以想像。。

就不想那了。。人活着越多年，烦恼也会跟着增长。。多羡慕那童年纯真的小孩们，无忧无虑，开心无比。。希望越多，就失望越多。。但是如果没有了希望也就代表没有了明天。。所以宁可抱着希望，也不就此放弃。。总有一天我会得到我所要得到的。。这次一定会成功！！

The d@y after big d@y celebration

Yesterday I have my birthday celebration with my friends..I enjoy it very much and thanks them for bringing me the hapiness.. Very funny birthday cake candle blowing ceremony..Due to already past due, so my friends help me to blow the candle where at that time wind is strong there and we only lightened up 1 big and 5 small candles..So I am now 15 years old now?

After enjoying the party, today I and my friends all become fisherman and we competive to see whose get the biggest fish from the ocean..OMG..

I am with the extremely tired body+heart at work space due to late sleep and lack of sleep for almost one week as have early meeting almost everyday last week..Thought this week can rest a bit due to didnt see any calender stick at my outlook, unfortunately collegue has fwd the calender to me after notice I didnt have the calender.. haiz..have to continue the life then..

Well, today have one collegue asking me one question about the option..If i am given a chance for the promotion in other team where it will bring me the benefit for my wages..So wat i will choose? I have spent few mins to think of wat i will do for that.. My answer is I will still stay here as now is not the time for me to leave yet..I have mission incomplete and waiting me to get it done, if i leave now, I will feel sorry to him..If i choose to leave, I will join other farer depeartment where the job should different with previous job scope instead of join a group where the job scope is almost same with my previous job role.. But finally will I choose the correct option..Nobody know..

**M@ke @ wisH**

M@ke a wisH, M@ke a wisH..
To keep this special date in my blog, I have to write something here at this date.. So I m@ke a wish myself here where hope all my wish come true!!cheers!!